The loli's lonliness

Friday, June 29, 2007

Seahx, i'm so sry i made someone angry early in the morning sia... if u reading, sry sry sry x100 siax... but most likely nv see la, tht person also nv tag in my taggy de
Today exam, see the notes so many words also sianx, rather dun study. Early morning wake up find TB then meet tgt go sch... send most of my time in sch library... they start exam at 3pm, in the end i roam like siao... so bored...
Someone say i veri negative sia... lolzx, hmm... must think of something to be positive...
SIA LA!!! i saw one bird fly pass today sia! woah!!! nv see before!!!...
Lolx, jkin nia jkin nia, no offence
Actually is nth nice to write la... not i dun wan
Meet with tht veri high de person, go up GV queue like crazy... in the end no good seats for transformer... well, nth we can do... walk home liao, queue for nth sia...
Nth much to talk lahx... cux in sch almost whole day mahx...

Still trying to say, but i'm afriad we cnt even be normal friends anymore...

_just me_
5:41 AM

Thursday, June 28, 2007

I was in msn, msging HR...
I saw one gal de pic he put, kawaii desu neh...
(Big big de eyes, long hair, left parting like mine, then stick out tongue =P then put the finger ^.^v) Lolx
Haix... he always got gal ard him de lahx., gd for him then...
Envy T.T
SC still veri high, duno he eat estacy or way la... he going to become ultimate gay le...
Me leahx... i rather be gal seahx, lolx.
See me, so hum ji... this one scared tht one scared, like gal liddat...
Den wan do thing or say thing like wishy washy de... diaox...
Be gal also sad... so many pimple on face also die ~~~
Life is so unfair... some ppl has almost everything, some has nothing...
I'm singing now, although my singing suk but i will continue to song... cux i believe some where in the world there is ppl worst then me in singing. wahaha
Now as i walk sometimes i sing also la... trying to be more daring loh... cux i see ppl in MRT sing damn loud also... lolx
Hope ppl walk pass then listen~~ sia la!!! nice sia... then got ppl notice la... but cnt be la, ppl sure say WAH PIANG, buay pai sehx... so suk still sing so loud...
So sad... i hide at home sing...
I better close HR de msn now... keep looking at the pic make me feel "zi bei". lolx
Tmr exam, still no mood study... hope as least pass...
My class think i am those genius or wat liddat, actually i am jus a piece of... er hum... nvm dun say...
I starting to get pissed of becux a stupid person like me keep on got ppl ask me this ask me tht, later teach wrong thing i feel so guilty...
Go slp soon le... nitex all

if oni i could change everything of me to perfect, then maybe more ppl could see me... Would my fate change as i grow older? i wish, i hope~ someone would be always there for me...

_just me_
8:18 AM

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Went out with SC afterall to TM and eat teppanyaki, he tok alot... cux along the way meet so many ppl he knw... so i have to stand around, walk here and there, look this and tht...
No one look at me though, my face CMI
Then go home slack loh... so boring then i start messaging others one by one... actually i morning ask liao... no one reply nia...
Some studying, some no money, some got problem, some homework, some -.-" blar blar...
Then end up 5 ppl go...
So we meet thr at ard 7pm loh... play till late at nite...
Waiting for my bus number 3, tht stupid driver drove off when my hand was flagging like crazy... *flag flag*
I always kena this kind of problem de... my face ugly until driver scared loh... drive away without stopping sia.
Then in the bus SC like gay gay liddat... i scared...
Now in msn... He toking rubbish, he kidda too high... maybe jus now saw matthew then turn him on... tht y...
Souda!

Hoping for something tht will not come true... i hope, i wish, i pray... i din try... luv~~~

_just me_
8:57 AM

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

U knw something? Its damn hard to make life as wonderful as possible...
There is always something tht makes it damn bad no matter how good tht day is...
Today i went to do project work wit my poly friend at pasir ris library, did it in mac with all the food on the table. muhaha
Well, tmr is SC bday... no one is free tmr except me. Some got sch, some got exam, some went missing while some others duno also...
Ask him so many thing liao then set time, msn him no reply... call him then he sound pissed off...
No planning then i tmr wake up my own time then, not my fault watx.... not tht i nv try...
I was watching anime, my mum scold me for watching them so late at nite...
Kidda pissed of abit... Parents likes to nag u see? Thts parents... although some parents not so much la... u knw i talking abt who if u knw us...
I wonder am i too irritating? kind? selfish? or watever... No one person could really be my good friend... Seems like after awhile all ran away...
Msn remained so quiet still
Last year was quite quiet at this time as well, because many things had happened...
Bring not popular or talkative, i remain as a loner...
As i typing my mum in her room keep on "hmm", "haix", "grrr"
So my words may seems unpleasent cux i am angry as well
Ppl say home is the safest and best place, its a shelter...
I say home is the most dangerous place cux if u step on land mines, u r dead...
(Meaning: Home is worst place to be becux one word could cux your house too be flooded with words)

_just me_
7:39 AM

Sunday, June 24, 2007

I cnt slp ytd nite... duno y...
It seems like something bothers me and i was jus sitting on my bed the whole nite, eyes open
It was like 5am before i fall aslp.
I had a strange dream, it was kidda funny...
U knw? Looking at all the watever superstar show makes me feel so sad.... lolx
Cux i nv dare to join it unlike someone... u knw who lahx...
Not much ppl would be thr to support me, not even my parents
As you see other participant had so many ppl the to support them no matter how bad or well they sing, its like a form of encouragement... my mum would nv support me in watever i am doing tht is not regarding studies...
I wont wan to die without standing on stage once more with courage... like the one i have done it in Sec sch.... although i was so stiff on stage. lolx...
Supposely this week is exam week, i cnt me bother sia... becux i somehow have "STM", Short term memmory, watever i learn will jus forget the next day...
I understand everything in class but would jus forget, maybe this is y i did badly for my O-lvl, also i nv study for O-lvl la.... wahaha!!!
Exam period also go lanshop play game. lalala ^.^v

_just me_
5:30 PM

Friday, June 22, 2007

This is my first post... i am trying out this new blog i created

_just me_
10:56 AM