The loli's lonliness

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Home is nv a home... u knw y?
Becux~~ "H"ome -> "h"ome
The H is different. lolx, jking oni
Imagine u alone at home from day to evening... its boring yet peaceful
Everything ard u seems to be your accompanion, however they get bored too and u leave them instead of they leave u
Eventually turning on music, games and some stupid anime which makes a little laughter... Laughing all alone is not tht great u see?
Neighbour might think u r crazy~~~
Always hopign to have someone with u at this kind of moment... then again during the evening
HORROR!!!
A female monster came in from the front door of your hse and shouted your name the moment she enters. Not to praise u, not to reward u... Sing song to u~~~~ lolx
When singing is nt tht nice u will walk somehow further, then it gets louder and louder
Somehow this stupid idiot monster kept all her stupid anger to herself from work... from many many things in the day and shoot all over u
Will u die?
I believe i had always been living... when was my death date? 1990~~ the day when i was so called "born"
Seahx... Becux i am in hell now. It makes sense rit?
Really i dun mind dying early u see... but dun make me suffer
Is either one biang! or silent in slp would be even better...
Y do human scared of death? Many things unfulfill? true... maybe
For me... i kidda useless so most likely i wont be able to do much so no wishes and regretx...
Even if have, my short tern memo might have made me forget it
Human have birthday... birthday = death day
We r born to die... Have u ever hear someone born and not die? Not me... i have nt hear it before...
Sadist..

_just me_
6:20 AM

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Post abit la...
The whole day was OK but boring until nite time, my poly friend told me timetable was out...
I went to have a look, found out that i went in german class...
I was so moody and so angry of myself abt y i din study during the exam perioud while everyone was studying.
I was trying to find someone to tok to. But found out that i dun really have a friend who really cares abt me... I looks so pathetic, such a loser who dun even have a gd friend beside me...
I Stunned
Looking into the computer screen i could not see myself, i'm lost
My mind went blank as i began to type this stupid blog once again...
I quarrel wit someone i shldnt jus now cux i was pissed, one who finds me when in trouble but do not accompany me as well when i need him... Am i jus a reflection of him? I wonder...
Maybe he shld tell me nicely? Did i scold him? No... i was jus scolding my time table
He jus dun understand me... No one really understand me, i dun find myself like a human u see... I'm odd
I seems more alien then anyone although i often call matthew alien...
How i wish thr was a same species as me in place ard me...
Crystal was not in to tok to me... I was bored... We dun knw each other which makes it better to tok...
Somehow ppl tht i knw wont bother me much... i knw tht... cux my attitude really sukx...
Kay wasnt thr... but i dun really tok to her as friendly now... the distance i drifting away~~ Cux we knw each other kidda well now.
I hardly has any friend left...
One by one
They left me
I'm Alone
All Alone
Living in the world of loliness once again...
U knw y the blog has the URL lolilonliness now...
Loli comes from lolishota... i'm short, small in size... not cute but hope to be... cux i am nt gd looking
Loliness is wat u see now...
I cant get my Jap language... I am depressed, I despair... I hope... I desire
Most of the time all those i wished for do not come true~~
Thts y my life is walk one step count one step...
If i were to plan my future 17 years ago... i think i would be dead by now
Cux i would hope to live happily with many friends...
I believe no one will see this post, cux no one bothers me now...
Those i trust left me
Those i hate hates me
Those i love ~~~
Dun tok to me...

_just me_
8:54 AM