Friday, November 16, 2007
Someone *toot* proclaim tht i am his friend
During special gathering i was not invited, i hated it~ i am angry~ i am sad
So if i guess i am not his friend after all, cux saying and showing r 2 different thing
I am disappointed by him again and again but i have no idea y i still treat him as a friend deep in my heart
Maybe when i am sad, i took him as a wooden block and told him everything?
And his reply was ya ya ya and he started saying abt himself...
Maybe for a lonely person, tht ya ya ya and some reply is a kind of consolation which i could not get from...
If he really treats me as a friend then i guess he is no better then me
I always thot i was a bad friend, since i am always alone... anger was always vent on them
I felt sorry, but there is no whr i could vent on anything
I keep storing all my pains within me until i have anger
No one is thr to hear wat i am up set about
School in poly really sux, i cnt stand it anymore
Ppl who have problem will come to me, when i need help everyone ran away
No one is like a friend to me
I tresure all my sec friend, i always wanted to pull everyone tgt so i wan to take part in both sides activities and slowly drag tgt
But somehow they drifted off again
No one can understand how i feel, some ppl reading this will say he understand, but actually he dont
_just me_
6:42 AM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
This wk everything go wrong... Gt scolded by lecturer and even classmate, damn it
I din print my work for handing in and i get a stupiding scolding from tht Comm Skill lecturer, haix...
Then the day before this was by a classmate.
I was sitting the the front row because i came early, then she came in late. Very late
Started accusing us tht we sat on her place, in the first place there is no name on the table...
The others start moving so i cant possibly remain thr, but i was like cursing at her as i walk from the front to the back... Sick...
Ask ppl to move off like toking to animal or wat liddat, rude until like freaking hell
Then the next lesson, one of her friend asked me question about programming... She shout "dun ask him la, he this type of ppl wont teach u de la"
I was like so fuked up (sry for scolding), my blood is boiling at more then 100 degree celcius... I also duno how to reach so high without fire
Puting aside wat she say, i finish teaching and then starting cursing her again
Many ppl went out to buy food and drinks
Then duno heaven drop one star hit her head or some chemical reaction in her drink, she came in the room to say sry to me, but of cux i not happy... so i took it as though i nv hear and nod my head for nth...
Shld be her other few friend shoot her until she bo pian so come appoligise la, cnt be she liang xing fa xian de
Today duno y MRT so fast i look at my watch as the MRT move and found out tht i was extreamly early
Odd things happen sia, duno issit my think too much until got hallucination...
Near Orchard or duno issit City hall, got one gal sit further to the other side... Din notice until i was getting down
Cux when i stand up and was getting to alight at Yio Chu Kang station, She was like keep looking at me... Maybe i too ugly la, then she think how come got such an ugly person living on Earth. lolx
Then i could see from the side of my eyes marhx... i thot i see wrong so i turn my head to face her
Like look at each other leahx, then we turn away... Lolx
I looked down on the floor... then i look by the side again
She was looking at this direction again, lolx
Kidda creepy~~~ Then i look over again, then end up same thing happened... both of us look away again
Then the train was abt to stop, i still keep my head low and get rdy to go out of the MRT
She was still looking, joke sia
And the story ends here, i walked out of the train... Hahax
_just me_
4:02 AM
Monday, November 12, 2007
おはいよ
よろしくおねがいします
Actually i also duno wat i typing
Let me have a change la... abit abit
Had been hoping to learn some fighting skill for self defence this few days but no one teach me
Tht day holiday went out tgt with WM and the others cux is JAY CHOU bday (gib him face)
Lolx, no offence
Stayed in LAN for veri long time and then have dinner with them
Ate my fravourite Unagi and also my fravourite ramen
Saying thing i rmb someone owe me ramen, by interest it shld be two bowl now~~
After dinner of cux go back to LAN again, nth special the whole day
Forget to take WM picture which i promise, feel abit guilty now
Waited for 1hr plus before the others come
ONE guy brought his GF here and stayed for TADA!!! 45mins and left
Sad sia... Nan de ke yi meet
Tok to lambert and rui, feel better tht day and hope tht day wont pass so fast
But time is short, my life is even shorter
I'm planning to do another new blogskin IF i have time, but i am so lazy... so i dun think i will
There r many things i wish to do, all i wan is there is someone by be to accompany me and finish things us
Play games, do blog, so on so on
Oh ya, on WM bday one person is missing... duno whr he dissappear to
_just me_
5:48 AM
