Friday, November 16, 2007
Someone *toot* proclaim tht i am his friend
During special gathering i was not invited, i hated it~ i am angry~ i am sad
So if i guess i am not his friend after all, cux saying and showing r 2 different thing
I am disappointed by him again and again but i have no idea y i still treat him as a friend deep in my heart
Maybe when i am sad, i took him as a wooden block and told him everything?
And his reply was ya ya ya and he started saying abt himself...
Maybe for a lonely person, tht ya ya ya and some reply is a kind of consolation which i could not get from...
If he really treats me as a friend then i guess he is no better then me
I always thot i was a bad friend, since i am always alone... anger was always vent on them
I felt sorry, but there is no whr i could vent on anything
I keep storing all my pains within me until i have anger
No one is thr to hear wat i am up set about
School in poly really sux, i cnt stand it anymore
Ppl who have problem will come to me, when i need help everyone ran away
No one is like a friend to me
I tresure all my sec friend, i always wanted to pull everyone tgt so i wan to take part in both sides activities and slowly drag tgt
But somehow they drifted off again
No one can understand how i feel, some ppl reading this will say he understand, but actually he dont
_just me_
6:42 AM
